Friday, May 23, 2008

Victor at Dinner

Once when I was nine
My grandmother oh divine
Said "Victor, grandson of mine"
"Say grace so we may dine"

"Stand up straight and raise your head to his almighty"
It was so and much more pomposity
In my head it was to be my prayer of ambiguity
So I paved the way for them to question my sanity

"Oh great father we are gathered here today
Give peace to us before we sit-down to our prey
For it only lies on our table and we did not slay
Forgive us this day before we go down to lay"

Running down my grandmothers cheek
Tears, they ran, is the future so bleak?
The uproar of the priest, as he began to speak
"Sacrilege", but i said "what is life but a freak"

"Victor! Sit-down" my grandmother said to me
I did so with a mischievous glee
Though half-done it was left to be
Exposed hypocrites, they stared at me

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

I've been tagged.. My Happy 10.. :)

Well I've tagged by She Mind Wow suddenly ten things seems like a lot.. does that mean there aren't ten things that make me happy. I am either too sad or just plain picky! :)

1) Dogs - Love dogs, passing by one on the road even i always tend to smile. Even make a comment to myself about how cute they look. My almost nonexistent heart melts around dogs.

2) The sound of Jet Planes and Helicopters, once upon a time when meese was young mouse he had plans to fly planes. Down came the dream and thank god it was not a plane. Yes but the sound of a Jet engine in the distance or helicopter blades cutting through the wind gives me goose bumps. hehehe.. a bit of a geek i am for these things.

3) The beach, the sun setting and the million colours that form within the clouds when the sun is setting. Thats a beautiful sight.. Together with the sound of the waves and wind.. This is everything to do with the beach though..

4) Sometimes after nice conversation you don't realize how much time has passed.. that makes me smile. One because of a great conversation, two cos i know i'm talking to someone I possibly like:)

5) A good movie.. is a long movie.. The ones that get into details of characters with a deep meaning to the whole story... I love these..

6) When I write something and if one person thinks they can relate.. thats a great feeling.

7) Work, yes work.. I love my work.. I love what i do.. Something thats kept my sanity these few months.. Something that keeps me going. Work.. I think I am lucky to be in my position.. I just love it..

8) I make stuff outta other stuff... Whenever I do that I'm happy that i've created something of my own.. Again.. Geek.. hehehe

9) Chocolate Ice Cream, the only other Ice Cream I eat is Vanilla Ice Cream that comes with chocolate ice cream. There is no other ice cream apart from chocolate ice cream :) I'm sorry.. I just have tunnel vision here...

10) Last one... Hearing a song I love after a long time...


So I guess thats it.. It wasn't easy to come up with ten... gosh!

So here I tag Spider , i think i'm at the end of this tagging session so who else might there be.. if i find someone.. i just might tag them :p

Monday, May 19, 2008

Everyday...

Every 24 hours you or I live we might sleep, work, play, eat, rest, cry, laugh, smile, talk, and go through a million thoughts, random events and contemplate the meaning of life.

In the time it takes for us to brush our teeth the world may end or begin for someone out there..

In the time it takes me to get across the city to my place of work. People have died, been killed, for money, for power, for something worth killing.

We read in numbers in the news papers, in numbers formed by humans for humans. Numbers with value. One hundred dollars, A million Euros and 10 million Rupees.

60 minutes and while I sat in my car listening to my favourite song a woman somewhere was being raped. A woman just like the women I know. Just like the women I in my life that I love she was beautiful, sexy, sweet and caring.. a woman.. Being raped.. Overpowered and taken. Hatefully swallowed into a pain only she and others like her will know. All this while I listened to the DJ bitch about my favourite song and I was pissed off that the commercial cut in half way through. She cried called out for help and I, I didn't hear her. I was too busy with my 4 minute song. Now she lies in a corner almost dead, wishing she were dead.

Two hours gone by with nothing interesting in my day.. its just the same old grind I say.

Not for the little boy who didn't know what was happening to him, fondled, been sodomized. He cannot speak of it because he is too afraid. A girl too young bleeds because a man has had no mercy.

My day is still the same with my routine work and a call to my friends trying to get everyone together for a party. Yeah lets all party! Two children a girl a boy. The party ended for them, today.

6 hours and a quarter of my day has gone.. I am alive and well. 3000 new HIV infected individuals. If you are going to fuck.. Wear a condom it saves lives. 2250 People dead due AIDS and 360 of them are children under the age of 15. I am 24 this year. AIDS has only been something I read about.

12 hours and Its evening. Over 2500 girls between 5 and 15 have been sold into the sex trade so far. Another 2500 by the end of the day. She was sold to strip naked before strangers who will touch her with vulgar intent. Contort her child like body, disfigure it and grow her into a woman in a manner of minutes. She was a seven year old girl, she is a seven year old woman. Read the numbers, these numbers have value. She is worth a grand 7 billion Dollars every year... Maybe we can save her?

15 hours and over 15000 people have died due to starvation and the majority are children. In the 15 minutes it took me to drink a milkshake and not be satisfied with its taste 260 people died without food to save their lives and around 220 of them would have been kids.

Sleep and 24 hours, 1440 minutes, 86400 seconds gone by. Every 20 minutes another species is pushed to extinction. Gone forever.. Never To return. Today we have lost 72 unique species of this world. We humans have killed it. Animals with a right to this world just as much as us humans do. We are killing them. Just like we are killing ourselves. I have heard that roughly 1% of the species on this planet go extinct every year...it is a crime. I helped to kill them.. I am to blame.

In the 24 hours we live, children are born and some die at birth. Some mothers die giving birth to their children. Somebody's father mother brother sister daughter or son will die. Either on the battlefield or on a road somewhere. Killed by a road accident or a violent crime. Of old age or of illness terminal or not and suicide. Death and suffering, pain and hurt around us. Among us, the person to the right or left of us.

Statistics, If you are alive in 24 hours, realize you are better off than someone else out there. If you wake up tomorrow 25000 people didn't because an empty stomach killed them.
Fuck this.. why Should I care...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Exam Stress...

Exam stress, everyone I know gets stressed out during exams including myself. This is one of the reasons I've stopped sitting for exams.

I mean if its so horrible and killing why put yourself through it eh? Its utter madness in my opinion to think that people volunteer to go through hell by sitting for some exam.

When I was in school it was fine, I never really felt exam stress until I failed one (Major) exam... that kick started the whole process of stress. Since then I've sat for about a dozen exams and passed over 75% of it.. Yet the stress that comes along with them is horrible.

There has to be something wrong with exams if people feel so shit about it at the end of the day... Either we derive masochistic pleasure by signing up for exams that only give us a few letters of the Alphabet.

So who is to blame here? Those morons that claim to be the leading institutes of education capable of delivering our future on a platter or ourselves for going through this fuck bucket.

So this is for all those people I know who are sitting for exams... I wish you all the best of luck to grow yourself a brain...

Maybe then you'll NOT sit for another exam and stress about it...

Thursday, May 1, 2008

To love is a choice...

Too many times have I heard the phrases "I'm in love, I don't know if I love him/her, Maybe I love him/her but I'm not IN-LOVE with him/her" Okay.. what the hell is love?


Well when the word is defined the general theory of understanding is love is a deep emotional feeling towards a person.

What the hell is all of this? What does it really mean? I cannot understand it for the life of me. I don't even know if I ever will.

Some think its a feeling that cannot be explained. Everyone actually has an idea of love, everyone thinks theirs is correct. I guess its true to a degree since various people will love in a different manner. Express it differently and expect it to be expressed to them the way they want it to be expressed.

There are the obvious points people say have to exist, attraction and comfort and all that. Yet once all the stupid feelings disappear and once you start to see the person for what they truly are. Once you see the their worst side, what happens then? When the honeymoon ends Do you choose to still say I-love-you or do you say I've-had-enough-of-you?

For what its worth, I'd say Love is a Choice. You can either choose to love someone or ignore them.

Maybe I'll write more about this later but thats all for now..
So let me know is love a choice, Yes or No?